“He bestowed on [me] a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair”. -Isaiah 61:3
The scripture that has forever marked my soul. It’s the perfect depiction of what the Lord has done in my life. He literally took my heart of stone and put in me a heart of flesh. (Ez. 36:26) Next month it’ll be 3 years since He encountered me in my bedroom. (Yes, my bedroom!) At that point in my life, my heart was broken, I was at my absolute lowest, I knew I was missing something. There had to be more to life than what I was used to. The truth is that words will never be enough to explain what Jesus has done…
He became the Restorer of my soul.
He became the Joy of my heart.
He became my reason to Praise.
He drew near to my broken heart.
I became like a well-watered garden.
I never understood what it meant to be truly loved until Jesus walked into my life. He gave Love a new meaning. Before, I would’ve been crazy to think that someone could love me with the Love that He showed me. I became so marked by what He had done on the Cross. I knew that by no means had I been worthy of His life, yet He showed me differently.
The day that He encountered me in my room was the day that I became DESPERATE for something else. It was the day of my Salvation and the day that His goodness brought me to repentance. He met me right where I was at and to you that is reading this, I have news for you… He will meet you right where you are at too. I’m here to remind you that He took on a cross for you, He reached back into hell to take the keys that now give you complete access to Him. You may not feel worthy of His blood, but He took on every ounce of pain just for YOU. All the pain that He so selflessly endured so that you could have the CHOICE of someday choosing Him. I did not feel worthy of Him at ALL, but it is the moment in which I understood how much He really loves me that I accepted that I really was forgiven. You’re never too far gone to Him. Rejoice in that, sis and let Him love on you before you let anyone else love on you.
I learned very quickly in my walk with the Lord that nothing and nobody in this world has the power to satisfy my needs or desires like Jesus. Just as He told the woman at the well, “If you drink from Jacob’s well you’ll be thirsty again and again, but if anyone drinks the living water I give them, they will never thirst again and will be forever satisfied! For when you drink the water I give you it becomes a gushing fountain of the Holy Spirit, springing up and flooding you with endless life!” (John 4:13)
Sis, don’t fight what the Lord is trying to do in your life. It may not feel good, it may feel uncomfortable, it may hurt, it may feel like a loss, it may feel like the pressure keeps coming, but sis, it’s NOT a lie when they say that pressure makes diamonds. God is trying to give you back the crown of beauty you are meant to wear. He’s trying to redeem you from those ashes that you thought were unredeemable, unworthy, dead and bring them back to LIFE! But sis, there also comes a point in time where we have to willingly drop the things of this world, leave them at the altar and take a drink from the Living Water. Everything else will keep you running back to the well like the Samaritan woman did.
The Lord says that you are SO worthy, you are absolutely loved, you are precious in His sight, you are beautifully and wonderfully made. It doesn’t matter what your momma, daddy, boyfriend, friends or coworkers have to say about you. What matter most is what He already declared over you.
God wants to encounter you the way He did me… whether it be in your mess or chaos, He wants to change your life the way He did mine. Your life may not look like mine used to look before I knew Him, the only thing I know is that the same God that turned me into something beautiful from the ashes is the same God that wants to do something amazing in yours. The world will only tell you differently, but you no longer have to live in defeat or despair when you realize you’ve got Him.
Sis, I pray that you wear your crown of beauty with Joy.
You will glow like never before because you are pregnant with a purpose. I dare you to walk like it, talk like it, act like it.
“Who knows, perhaps you have come to your royal position for such a time as this.” Esther 4:14
In His Love,